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How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives. - Annie Dillard

Gram-isms


I try to not make all my posts about Gram, but this one is solely about him. So many new quirks and funny things going on with him that I just have to share so I don't forgot this fun stage. And it is quite a fun stage! I had heard horror stories about the terrible twos, but thus far 2 years old has been one of Gram's best stages. And I am trying to cherish every moment.

1. I think I have bragged about Gram before, somewhere?, but let me just say for the record again that he is an AMAZING little boy. He is well behaved, obedient, perceptive, attentive and capable. Personally, this stage for me as a stay at home mom is more difficult. I struggle with feeling guilty about whether I am doing enough with him, whether I am intentional enough with our days, if I am being creative enough to stimulate his learning. But I have been reminded these last few weeks that obviously something is going right because he is a good, good kid. And really, that's what I want, a good kid and not, to be honest, a hellun'. Praise God!

2. Gram's first imaginary friend is a monster. Kind of weird, huh? He doesn't have a name, just monster. Monster hides in his cardboard box house sometimes, or jumps in his bed, or lurks in the laundry room. We tell monster to go away sometimes or run and hide from him. Such a fun and silly and quite unexpected imagination. I never know what monster will be doing next. The other night for homegroup Gram wanted to wear his Batman pajamas. We asked him if monster was around and he said, "No, I'm batman!" Apparently, monster knows to stay away when Batman is around. Too cute!

3. While Dustin or I drive, Gram will often yell "2 hands! 2 hands!". Safety first for him, apparently! We haven't been able to figure out where he got this. He has done it with my parents as well and they are just as clueless. However, what I realized today is that I often tell him to use "2 hands" when I want him to be extra careful, such as dumping out the dust pan (yes, that is one of his chores he helps with), or eating a sandwich or burrito that might fall apart, etc. So, did he put those together in his mind? He wants us to be careful driving so is telling us "2 hands"? If so, my mind is blown. That's pretty smart, right?

4. My brother and sister in law got Gram this "Ok to Wake" froggy alarm clock for Christmas. It's awesome and he is loving it. We set it to turn green at 7:15am so he knows it is ok to get out of bed. We often hear him talking well before 7:15am to his animals and such, just waiting for the green froggy to light up. He then comes running out of his room shouting "green froggy, green froggy!" So excited and so fun to experience each morning.

5.Gram has always been a very cautious and capable little boy. This quality influences my parenting quite a bit, I just don't have to worry about him doing certain things because I know he won't. Therefore, he has freedoms that I might not be able to give our next kid, depending on his temperament. However, Gram is just 2 and so it's hard at times to know how much freedom and trust to put in him. A prime example from today: we were having mom's group at Amy Hyatt's house and the kids were playing in Josie and Janie's room. Gram had been in there for a bit so I went to check on him. I found him on the TOP BUNK of the bunk beds, with only a ladder to get him up there. This is how things went down...
Me: Ugh...Gram, watcha doin' up there?

Gram: (smiling hugely!)

Me: Did you climb up there all by yourself?

Gram: Uh huh.

Me: Ok...are you ready to get down?

Gram: Uh huh.

Me: Do you want me to help you down?

Gram: No.

Me: Have you got down all by yourself before?

Gram: Uh huh.

Me: Ok...can Mommy watch you get down all by yourself?
Gram: Uh huh, (big smile)

I proceed to watch him swing his leg over and climb down the ladder.

Me: Well....(stunned and not knowing what to say)..good job bud, I'm proud of you for doing that all by yourself....you need to be very careful getting up and down, ok? Be very careful.

Gram: (smiling) Uh huh.

He probably climbed up and down atleast 50 times throughout the rest of the morning, totally preoccupied with his new accomplishment. I was stunned at his capability. And while I understand the risk, I couldn't bring myself to squelch his obvious control and pride over the situation. I have learned over the last 2 years that Gram just doesn't do things that he doesn't feel capable of doing. He has proven to us time and time again of his control and understanding of situations. It's pretty remarkable and something I did not expect to see in my kid.


Overall, I feel incredibly blessed by Gram and by the stage that he's in as we are embarking on becoming a family of 4. I know his little brother will change family dynamics and I'm trying to think of lots of ways to empower Gram as an older brother. I couldn't have asked for a better time for Gram to become an older brother, I thank God for his timing and for the 2 beautiful gifts He is giving to us.

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A bit soul-less and blah

Tuesday night, Gram is with Meme and Papa and Dustin is at class. The whole night is mine. Knowing myself, I've committed to sitting at a coffee shop for the duration of the evening, keeping myself away from home which tempts me with mind-numbing TV and housework. No, this time is just for me. Wow, it's been so long. It's hard to not include mind-numbing TV and housework in the things that I want to do when I have free time. Honestly, typically, that is what I do. Either veg out or catch up. Sigh.

Right now I'm feeling a bit soul-less. That sounds so awful, I know, but I'm not for sure how else to describe my insides right now. Life is good, but I'm quite blah. Part of this feeling is coming from feeling VERY pregnant right now. Physically, I'm out of breath, I have heartburn no matter what I eat (including cereal, weird!), I can't sleep because I can't get comfortable and my mind refuses to calm down, my husband has been sleeping in a chair for the last 6 weeks and I miss him in bed. Mostly, this soul-less feeling is from not finding the time or desire to focus on myself, even more to focus on God, to spend time with Him, to let him talk to me, to let myself talk to Him. Why do I do this to myself? I know what the problem is and yet I don't make the time to change it. Well, that's what tonight is all about. Changing my soul. Sigh.

"For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ." (2 Peter 1:5-8 NIV)

I started a Bible Reading Plan for 2012, today is Jan. 18th and I'm 11 days behind. Ugh. This verse was part of the reading plan and it struck me. It struck me that I feel ineffective and unproductive in my relationship with Jesus, in my relationship with others, in my service to His Kingdom. I hate feeling that way, like I'm wasting my days, like I'm going through the motions for my family but me, personally, is wasting away a bit. I don't want to sound dramatic and as I re-read this, it kind of sounds that way. I'm trying to be honest with myself, I'm trying to take the time to reflect, to understand what's really going on with me. So I can change. So I can stop the cycle, so I can hopefully move away from feeling like this. And this is the first step, sitting here alone in the coffee shop, with no expectations of myself but to write and reflect and move towards Jesus. It feels nice. Deep breath.

I've written out my goals for 2012. 8 goals total, 2 for each of 4 categories: Financial, Personal, Marital, and Parenting. My personal goals are: Write more, spend more quality time with God. They sound pretty simple, but they mean so much to my soul. It's through writing that I do spend quality time with God, so they kind of go hand in hand. Through writing, I find my heart, mind and soul which ultimately leads to God. Simple and specific. Exciting.

I'm looking through my journal, reminding myself of what God has done and is doing in my life. Even though I feel a bit soul-less and blah right now. I know God is working in my life, and this is proof.

Date Unknown: Reflection on Acts 6-8: Because I am a part of God's redemptive community I...
- am learning what it means to truly seek forgiveness and honestly grant it.
- am learning what it means to be transparent with myself and those closest to me and to live an honest life.
- am learning what it means to play my part in loving the community- to do no more and no less than what God calls me to.
- am learning that showing up each Sunday is worth the effort.
- am learning these people that I see week after week are part of my family, I rejoice when they rejoice and mourn when they mourn, and feel the loss when even one leaves.
- am learning that God is powerful enough to redeem even the most seemingly hopeless situations.
- am learning that I need this community as a regular part of my life, they keep me grounded and challenged and loved.
- feel closer to God.

I can say that this past year has been one of the hardest and yet most rewarding years of my life. I anticipate 2012 will be more of the same. Two boys this year! Hard and rewarding, for sure. Dustin leading Evergreen and in school. Hard and rewarding. And...me, what's for me this year. What does 2012 have for Kelli specifically? Not in regards to kids or husband, what can I personally look forward to? What can I pursue? These are the questions I need to answer. Finding these answers will help me not feel as I feel right now a year from now, soul-less, blah and lost.
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I am so sorry

Learning to say you're sorry can be a hard life lesson. Most adults, myself included, have a hard time saying it in some instances. This week Gram took 2 steps forward in understanding sorry, and my heart could just burst.

1 step:
1. While at the community center this week, he pushed a little girl who was going for the same toy that he was going for. After talking to him and asking him to apologize, which he did, we moved on to other toys. Later that night, we were telling Dustin about all the toys he got to play with at the community center and Dustin asked him about pushing down the little girl. We re-explained that we don't push other kids but that Gram did a really good thing by saying he was sorry to the little girl. We moved on and began to play with other toys. A few minutes later, Gram said, "Push the girl....I am so sorry." WHAT?! My heart melted. His little heart was still thinking about what we had just talked about and he said "so sorry", what little kid says that? Such a sweet boy.

2. I took Gram to his last music class this week, only to find out once we arrived that it was cancelled due to the snow. I said to Gram that I was sorry that class was cancelled and we would go play somewhere else instead. In the car Gram said, "Class cancelled....I am so sorry." And he kept repeating it! He was sorry he didn't get to go to his last class, so sweet.

This age is so amazing, he is like a sponge, just soaking in everything we are teaching him. It's humbling to see him listen, think and respond. I wonder if I am doing as well as that as he is.
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A time to reflect

My husband has, once again, prompted me by his reflections to do some reflecting of my own. And so, here is my attempt to recap 2011.

Honestly, I feel like, wow! where do i even begin. this might be the year of the most ups and downs for me.

I'll start with the lows because that's where my mind goes to first (unfortunately!)
1. The death of loved ones, my Grandpa Walt and Uncle Donny. The absolute lowest of lows. Death of loved ones are always heart breaking and they always seem too soon, no matter the circumstances. The two redeeming things in these circumstances are: a. I know they are both with Jesus and that we will get to see them again one day, Praise God! b. Death is always a time of family bonding, it brings the rest of us closer together to reminisce and reflect on the good life and memories we have with those who have left us. Those moments are precious to me.

2. I have learned so much about friendship this year. This will also be placed in the highs section, but I had to place it here as well because I've had to deal with hard friend stuff this year, and it's broken my heart. This is an area of my life that I continue to be humbled, knowing that I have so much to learn as life unfolds about being a good friend, maintaining and developing true friendships in the midst of being a mom, and learning what it means to rely on Jesus as my closest friend in the midst of those times where I feel the emptiness of close friends.

3. Being a stay-at-home mom has had its ups and downs. The low was really at the beginning of the year during a time when Gram couldn't communicate what he knew he wanted and I couldn't figure out what he was wanting. Our days were filled with frustration on both of our parts and it was just hard. He also was still up throughout the night and nursing and after 14 months of that, I was exhausted and almost at my wits ends. Thankfully, that too was a season, and many highs have followed.



Now onto the highs!
1. Being a stay-at-home mom has been one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life, maybe even THE most fulfilling experience of my life. There are hard times, and it's not a cake walk on a daily basis, but man, I would not have it any other way. Getting so much time with Gram, experiencing those daily moments of learning and joy and helping him get through his frustration and learn to communicate and work through problems- it's all absolutely amazing. I feel so blessed that God has entrusted him to us, and even more blessed that I get to spend my days with him. It's a financial sacrafice to not have me work full time, but well worth it when compared to sacraficing my time with him. I look forward to getting to share my time with our next little boy and seeing Gram's relationship with his little brother grow on a daily basis. Ahhh, a time in my life that I will never get back, never get to do over again, and I just want to savor these moments.



2. I got to spend A LOT of time with family this year and it was wonderful! I spent 3 weeks in Marshall in Feb., vacationed with my parents to Florida in April, visit from Dustin's mom in May, back again to Marshall in August, my parents here for 3 months this fall/ winter, and another 2 surprise visits from Dustin's mom this Nov/ Dec. Yeah!!! It's hard to live away from family, so I'm thankful for all the visits we get each year. And so, so thankful that my parents enjoy Portland so much that they choose to split their time between here and Illinois. We are so, so blessed by them and it's so fun to see Gram light up when they are around. He loves all of his grandparents and I'm thankful for any amount of time he gets with them. (And I'm thankful for the break it gives me!)



3. My marriage is in a really great place. After having Gram, it took Dustin and I almost a year to get back to a place where we were "us" again. This year has been a time of reconnecting after having our world turned upside down by our sweet little man. I think we'll rebound a bit faster after the next kid, but I expect to have another season of utter exhaustion where there's just not much left for each other for a bit. We don't have a perfect marriage, and I look forward to the years to come when our marriage gets better and better. But I love where we are right now. I love and respect Dustin more today than I did 6 years ago. I feel so supported by him and encouraged by him, knowing that whatever I ask he would grant. He is with me 100% on this adventure and I could not ask for anything more.


4. We have some amazing friends and THE MOST amazing community a girl could ever ask for. The Evergreen Community has shown up in our lives in the most helpful and practical ways. They have and continue to support us and encourage us and believe in us. It's an absolute honor to pastor a church like this one. My heart truly overflows when thinking about them. Through the ups and downs of this past year, we have gained life long friends and we are blessed.


I'll save my goals for 2012 for another blog post, as well as some personal reflection. But for now, that was 2011. A very full year. One of my goals for 2011 was to have a full life and not just a busy life, and I do believe that was accomplished. Life gets crazy and things are busy, but my days were full, and I count that a successful year.
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Goodbye Uncle Donny

It's weird to be writing my second post of the year reflecting on the death of a loved one. My uncle Donny Warner died suddenly on Friday, and quite honestly, I'm hoping this post helps me to process this loss. It's so, so difficult to be away from family during this time. I wish I was there to mourn with them and love them. It's hard to not get to share my hurting heart with theirs. It's hard to not be able to give my Grandma a hug, a hug that says I can't imagine what you are feeling having just lost your second son.

My uncle Donny was one of my favorite relatives. He was one of the most generous servants I have ever known. Ironically, he and his twin brother Danny both died from hearts that just stopped. Two men with hearts bigger and stronger than I have ever seen. Hearts for family and friends that went beyond duty or obligation, hearts that were loyal and kind and hard working. It's just weird how life turns out, and weirder how death happens.

My uncle Donny loved his children and grandchildren more than life itself. I know their hurt is so, so deep right now. And my heart is with them. I know they are feeling lost, as I would had I lost a parent. My prayers are for them to continue one day at a time.

My uncle Donny and aunt Carol Ann visited me in both Florida and Oregon, and I loved their visits. They always cared so much about me and what was going on with my life. I cherish those memories.

My mom has now lost 2 brothers, and life is different now. Life changes when one of us leave it. Our family will never be the same without my uncle Donny. I know this is not what she expected. I know this is not what my aunt Carol Ann expected. My heart is with them...no matter the distance, always with them.

Uncle Donny, I pray you are with Uncle Danny and Grandpa Jack right now. I pray there was a joyous reunion, which I know you have been waiting for for many years. We will be reunited one day... but in the meantime, you are dearly missed.
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Sweet dreams


I'm blogging at 4am, been up since 2am when I was awoke by Gram laughing in his sleep. Quite a contrast from the cries that use to awaken us in the night, a much embraced contrast!

I was sitting on my couch this evening with my feet up and a book in my hand listening to the sweet giggles coming from Gram's room during bedtime routine with dad. I sat there soaking it all in, our living room, the dark night and warm glow of our lights inside, a kitchen cleaned after a good meal, and my two favorite guys giggling in the next room before bed. This is what I have been thinking about in the middle of the night after being awoke by dreaming laughs. I can't seem to shake this overwhelming feeling of contentment and gratitude, I can't get back to sleep because of it. I am utterly humbled at all God has chosen to give me and at who he has chosen to give me.

It's been about 5 months now that Dustin has been doing the bedtime routine with Gram and putting him to bed. After 18 months of nursing Gram and putting him down, I have gladly given this over to Dustin and Dustin has even more gladly and gaily accepted. Gram's bedtime routine includes reading books with dad right before night-nights. Every night is a little different in that there's no set amount of books that Gram and Dustin read together. Some nights Gram can hardly get through 1 book before he points to the crib and says, "night-nights". Dustin obliges with an "I love you bud, night-nights" and puts him to bed. Other nights Gram seems to delaying the inevitable with more books even though he is so tired. Those nights Dustin says, "just one more book bud and then night-nights." Gram obliges and is carried to his crib with an "I love you bud, night-nights." But some nights are like tonight, when both Gram and Dustin want to sit, cuddling in the rocker, pointing to and talking about each page in each book. There's no hurry, just delight in spending time together. I admit that on the nights when Dustin is at a meeting and I read with Gram, I find myself wanting to hurry through bedtime routine so I can get him down and have some time to myself. But Dustin, he doesn't do that, he savors each moment with Gram. He truly delights in his son.

What is on my mind tonight that I can't seem to shake is how amazing of a dad my husband is. Those of us who knew Dustin before he was dad often thought, "What kind of dad will Dustin be?" Dustin wasn't the kind of guy that flocked to babies or had kids flock to him necessarily. He had only held 1 or 2 babies before Gram came along! I didn't know what kind of dad Dustin would be, but I knew he would be a good dad. I knew he would surprise us. However, I greatly underestimated his skills as a father and have realized over these last months that Dustin is a great dad, a really, really great dad.

I knew that I would be a good mom. I love babies and have looked forward to this time in my life for a very long time. But I learn weekly from my husband what it means to be a godly parent, what it means to guide, correct and love with patience and intention. As I laid in bed tonight I just felt deeply grateful for the man who sleeps next to me night after night. For his for love me and our son (and the one on the way!) that comes from the very depth of who he is.

And so, I have no doubt that Gram was dreaming about his dad tonight. He could have been laughing at Dustin eating his head like a zebra (a notion totally made up by Dustin!), or kissing him in the small of his neck, or chasing him around the house, or pretending to drop the book, all things that Gram loves to do with his dad.

Sweet dreams, my boy, sweet dreams.
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Moments




"The rituals just seemed to stop, like all the other natural endings- such as the last time one of the boys crawled into bed with us, or I carried them on my hip, or saw them naked, even. Such moments evaporate so quietly that you don't realize it's the last time until long afterward."

I'm reading this book called, "A Year by the Sea: Thoughts of an Unfinished Woman" by Joan Anderson. She is writing about her experience to not move with her husband when he accepted a new job and to, instead, spend a year in their Cape Cod cottage, basically trying to figure out now that her kids were out of the house and married what she wanted out of life. It's been a good read so far. I empathize with her, knowing that I could very well feel as she feels 20 years from now. I don't want to feel like she does, but I can understand how easily it is for women, in particular, to spend their whole lives managing their households that we forget to be us, to maintain our sense of self and purpose outside of our family.

This passage in particular really hit me because I've been feeling a bit of the same lately. Gram is almost 2 and, wow, how the time has flown. The days, however....they have not flown. And that's why this passage hit me. Because many days I feel like I am just trying to make it through the day with Gram, trying to meet his needs and keep crying/tantrums to a minimum. But I don't want to just make it through the days. Because one day I'll wake up and I won't have those days...the days of nightly baths and feet pajamas, the days of cuddles when he's tired or hurt himself, the days of pure elation when I come home from being gone, the days of "mom, mom, mom" in his sweet voice, the days of him wanting me to be with him all the time, of choosing me above anyone else. Those days won't be here forever. I don't want to push them along. I want to savor them. I want to savor this time with my baby boy.

But I also need to make time for myself, time which does not include watching TV or reading Facebook. I need meaningful time, time to read and write, time to pray and reflect, time to have adult conversations with those I love, time for silence and rest.

So this is where I'm at, trying to find the balance of savoring my time with Gram as well as carving out time for myself. I get the feeling this will be my challenge for the next 20 years, which is ok. I accept this challenge as opposed to the alternative, completely giving into serving my family at the expense of myself and feeling like I lost 20 years of my life. Life is so short, I want those 20 years to be meaningful to myself and to my family. I know it's possible. I know God has equipped me for it. I depend on Him to see me through.

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