Psalm 15
1 LORD, who may dwell in your sanctuary?Who may live on your holy hill?
2 He whose walk is blameless
and who does what is righteous,
who speaks the truth from his heart....
He who does these things
will never be shaken.
My resolution for this year is to be more honest. Typically, I'm a sugar-coater. It's hard for me to be completely honest with people sometimes for fear of offending them or hurting their feelings. So, I often sugarcoat my feelings or brush something aside as if it's not that big of a deal, when in fact I think it's a big deal or atleast a deal. This is hard for me because I'm a people pleaser, I want everyone to like me and to think I'm nice and kind and encouraging. And I still want that to be the case, but more than that I want to be someone who speaks the truth. I know people who are so good at speaking the truth into someone's life even when it's hard. I admire their tact and honesty and commitment to love people enough to say things others might not want to hear but need to hear. I want to be like them.
Speaking the truth isn't just about being more honest with others, the heart of it is that I need to be more honest with myself. I need to acknowledge when I've been hurt or when I've hurt someone else more often. I need to be willing to hear truth in my own life as well, which is hard.
One reason I feel the need to make this change right now is because I want to be able to be honest with Gram. I want him to grow up in a home where he can be honest with me and Dustin about how he's feeling and we can be honest with him. I want to be a family of open communicators. I feel like I need to learn that skill before I can teach him.
I guess this post is inviting you to be honest with me and be ready for me to be honest with you!
I just wish I could do it with tact! Maybe one day I will learn to bare the fruit of the Spirit of self control. One day...
Honesty is the best medicine even when you don't know you are sick.