I have been feeling lately a bit...out of whack- definitely not at peace. Gram isn't sleeping well so I've been tired. I haven't made sitting down and writing or reflecting a priority. I've wanted to start eating better and exercising most days that hasn't happened. The weather here has been so dreary in the mornings, not at all like summer. But mainly, I haven't taken the time to connect with Jesus. And I'm feeling it, feeling disheveled and all around blah. I hate feeling like that. And I hate when I miss Jesus because there's no reason for it.
I have a picture in my mind of who I want to be and what I want my days to look like, but I'm not doing all I can to get there. That bums me out. And I'm feeling super negative. I want this blog post to be hopeful but so far it feels depressing. Ugh.
So I just keep reading this verse over and over again, comforted by the picture of the morning light breaking upon me. I need that right now. I need the morning light of God's love and hope to break through my dreary, overcast mood and show me peace. I need the light of God to expose those dark places within me. I need to feel the warmth of that light penetrate the cold in my heart and mind. I'm thankful God is willing to break through.
Break through Lord,
Shower me with your mercy,
Light up my life and
Bring your peace.
