"We can make our own plans, but the Lord gives the right answer."
I'm realizing that I don't seek the Lord for the right answer often enough and that I try to make plans of my own without consulting him too much. I realized this last night about 1 am when Gram, who had been up since 10:30pm, wouldn't go back to sleep. I tried everything I could think of - in that 3 hours I fed him 3 times, changed his diaper, suctioned his nose, rocked and bounced him and nothing worked. I was so tired and yet asking God for strength and guidance wasn't the first thing I did. It wasn't until after all of my plans failed that I asked God for help. Why is that? Why do I have such a hard time turning to the One who I know has everything I need?
Gram is teething and probably going through a growth spurt considering he ate 5 times last night and it's wearing on me. It's wearing because he's such a happy and content baby most of the time that it doesn't make sense to me when he's nuts about going down for a nap or when he doesn't eat well during the day, things that typically aren't an issue for him. I feel at my wits end sometimes and yet it's hard for me to ask God for help. It's easy for me to research on the internet and read books about these issues, but it's hard for me to feel like God has the answers I need concerning these every day, small compared to the larger picture, issues. What can God teach me about helping Gram sleep better? How can God help me understand why Gram is upset? Why does he care? And yet I know he does.
I know he has the answers - I know he has specific answers to my questions and I know he has strength and patience for me to just get through, knowing these issues won't be problems forever.
I know He has what I need.
I believe He does.
Father help my unbelief.
