"Those who fear the Lord are secure; he will be a refuge for their children."
"Having a kid changes your life." Dustin and I realized this immediately. Driving Gram home from the hospital, everything looked different. Riding in a car was different, looking out the window at Walgreens and the trees was different, bringing him into our home was...amazing and different. Most profoundly, however, is my relationship with God is different. Worship means something different to me now that I have an heir, a tiny baby who is counting on me to teach him about the truths of this world and the next. Singing to the Lord, really listening to the words of grace and redemption that Christ offers to me is so much deeper knowing that He, in his unconditional love, has already extended that to Gram as well. I want the absolute best for Gram, I would give up anything good for myself for Gram to have everything good. God doesn't ask me to make that choice. He made that choice for me by sending his Son to us sinners, to love us, to forgive us, to redeem us. Gram and I need that.
It's a scary world out there and I can't imagine having brought Gram into it without the truth of God's love in my life. He makes life worth living for Gram. He will be Gram's rock, his refuge, his friend and savior. If I do nothing else right as a mom but teach Gram about his Father that loves him, I will consider this whole adventure a success.
Today I am grateful for Jesus in both Gram's and my life.
